like i'm gonna fuck everything up sometimes, someday somethings going to go smooth and when it does i'm probably gonna lose my mind. i guess for the time being I'll just keep a look out for the good things happening in my life.

It seems as though somethings lacking....  a lot of people... let me rephrase that a lot of people aren't going to read this... so a few people <--- probably not even that are going to read this and call it stupid and well i dont gice a fuck if you do or not. This is the deal my inspiration for writing this is somewhat silly, oh well. Picture this, a guy walks in to work carrying a container of muffins. he places them out with a note saying "eat me im free!!"  walks to his office sits down and checks his email a few moments go by and a cowaorker (male) walks in and says dude did you make these? yes do you like em? yyeah theyre great..  isn't baking kinda gay? fuck you get out of my office. a few moments later another cowaorker walks in "you make these things? theyre delicious!" "so you wear a skirt when you make em?" "fuck you get out" this goes on for some time eventually the muffins are gone, and the person who made them feels like an idiot, is angry pissed off and completely ready to go home... but it's only nine am...  got   a ways to go.....       Is it just me or did we fuck up somewhere? somehow we managed to get women the right to have any job she wants... and yet we still cant let go of the things that were "typical" in the fucking 50's.!!! If a dude is good at cooking and wants to share it leave him the fuck alone, if youre gonna be an ass about it dont eat the fucking food!! we've been able to disconnect the kitchen for the most part from a woman, but we just shuved it into the fucking corner so now it's off limits to both sides. If a woman chooses to do it she has to accept the fact that her dude is going to expect it.. im sorry but dinner is a collective effort on all parties. it's somewhat of a chore it's a pain in the ass sometimes but sometimes it's greatly rewarding. Either way if someone can do it has the time the patience and the willingness to do something nice or decent or just unrequired to fill your belly when you didnt have time for breakfast just say thanks. You dont need to be a "man" about it and belittle anyone.  that's all i have to say.

 He's in love with tragedy, in love with tragedy
She was a wreck, but he loved her
She was a wreck, but so was he
And the last time he saw Dorie, he didn't know what to say but
"Thank you because you loved me, it's all on me
cause I didn't want to stay, I didn't want to stay..."

Live, live, live because you love, love, love
And love will make you give, give, give
And give in when you break, break, break
But you just want to fix yourself
Just to break again...

THE SNIPE'S LAMENT

Now each of us from time to time, has gazed upon the sea, And watched the warships pulling out, to keep this country free. And most of us have read a book, or heard a lusty tale, About the men who sail these ships, through lightning, wind and hail. But there's a place within each ship that legend fails to teach. It's down below the waterline, it takes a living toll, A hot metal living hell, that sailors call the Hole. It houses engines run by steam, which make the shafts go round, A place of fire and noise and heat, that bears you spirit down. Where boilers like a hellish heart, with blood of angry steam, Are as molded gods with out remorse, and nightmares in a dream. Whose threat that from the fires roar, is like a living doubt, That any minute would with scorn, escape and crush you out. Where turbines scream like tortured souls, alone and lost in hell. As ordered from above somewhere, they answer every bell. The men who keep the fires lit, and make the engines run, Are strangers to the world of night, and rarely see the sun. They have no time for man or God, no tolerance for fear, Their aspect pays no living thing, the tribute of a tear. For there's not much that men can do, that these men haven't done Beneath the decks, deep in the hole, to make the engines run. And every hour of every day, they keep watch in hell, For if the fires ever fail, their ship's a useless shell. When ships converge to have a war, upon the angry sea, The men below just grimly smile, at what their fate might be. Their locked in below, like men fore doomed, who hear no battle cry, It's well assumed that if their hit, the men below will die. For every day's a war down there, where the gages all read red, Twelve hundred pounds of heated steam, can kill you mighty dead. So if you write their song, or tell their tale, The very words would make you hear, a fired furnace's wail. And people as a general rule, don't hear of men of steel below, So little's heard about this place, that sailors call the Hole. But I can sing about this place, and try to make you see, The hardened life of men down there, cause one of them is me! I've seen these sweat soaked heroes fight, in superheated air, To keep their ship alive and right, through no one knows they're there. And thus they'll fight for ages on, till warships sail no more, Amid the boiler's mighty heat, and the turbine's hellish roar. So when you see a ship pull out, to meet a warlike foe, Remember faintly, if you can, "THE MEN WHO SAIL BELOW."

Current Mood: nostalgic

As i sit here in my cushy office freezing from the AC being bored and surfing the net, i'm thinking about my friends. The guys that i depended on and the ones that depended on me. They're out there sweating their asses off getting tossed around in shitty seas jumping onto sinking boats. They're in the gulf, they're in the bearing sea, and here i am.. sipping coffee and writing a dumb journal. The one phrase that meant the world to me that i want to hear again "we have to go out, but we don't have to come back" What the fuck am i doing here?

unattainable goal #1 
Have straight teeth
unattainable goal #2
have a more muscular build
unattainable goal  #3
have the correct lifestyle
unattainable goal #4
be carefree
 

Anyone else feel the pressures of telling your family you dont believe in god? My parents recently discovered my views, and i feel a sense of dissapointment that im sure they have. Wondering if anyone else has had the same.

Current Mood: annoyed

The topic is whether or not to Evangelize the evangelicals.. i dunno why i'm typing this because my lame ass friends aren't gonna read it anyway. No matter, it's going to happen. I'm tired of the door calls im tired of the knob hangers. It's freedom of speech and freedom of religion on their part but this is going to be an excercise of freedom from religion on mine. I'm also debating on making an email account just for this mission and leaving an email address on the flyers dropped. i'd be interested to see if they even take the time to rebuke the material that's going to be posted. i hope so!! hahhha fuckers

Current Mood: irritated

Not so fast, Christian soldiers
The Pentagon has a disturbing relationship with private evangelical groups.

By Michael L. Weinstein and Reza Aslan
Wednesday August 22, 2007

Maybe what the war in Iraq needs is not more troops but more religion. At least that's the message the Department of Defense seems to be sending.

Last week, after an investigation spurred by the Military Religious Freedom Foundation, the Pentagon abruptly announced that it would not be delivering "freedom packages" to our soldiers in Iraq, as it had originally intended.

What were the packages to contain? Not body armor or home-baked cookies. Rather, they held Bibles, proselytizing material in English and Arabic and the apocalyptic computer game "Left Behind: Eternal Forces" (derived from the series of post-Rapture novels), in which "soldiers for Christ" hunt down enemies who look suspiciously like U.N. peacekeepers.

The packages were put together by a fundamentalist Christian ministry called Operation Straight Up, or OSU. Headed by former kickboxer Jonathan Spinks, OSU is an official member of the Defense Department's "America Supports You" program. The group has staged a number of Christian-themed shows at military bases, featuring athletes, strongmen and actor-turned-evangelist Stephen Baldwin. But thanks in part to the support of the Pentagon, Operation Straight Up has now begun focusing on Iraq, where, according to its website (on pages taken down last week), it planned an entertainment tour called the "Military Crusade."

Apparently the wonks at the Pentagon forgot that Muslims tend to bristle at the word "crusade" and thought that what the Iraq war lacked was a dose of end-times theology.

In the end, the Defense Department realized the folly of participating in any Operation Straight Up crusade. But the episode is just another example of increasingly disturbing, and indeed unconstitutional, relationships being forged between the U.S. military and private evangelical groups.

Take, for instance, the recent scandal involving Christian Embassy, a group whose expressed purpose is to proselytize to military personnel, diplomats, Capitol Hill staffers and political appointees. In a shocking breach of security, Defense Department officials allowed a Christian Embassy film crew to roam the corridors of the Pentagon unescorted while making a promotional video featuring high-ranking officers and political appointees. (Christian Embassy, which holds prayer meetings weekly at the Pentagon, is so entrenched that Air Force Maj. Gen. John J. Catton Jr. said he'd assumed the organization was a "quasi-federal entity.")

The Pentagon's inspector general recently released a report recommending unspecified "corrective action" for those officers who appeared in the video for violating Defense Department regulations. But, in a telling gesture, the report avoided any discussion of how allowing an evangelical group to function within the Defense Department is an obvious violation of the establishment clause of the 1st Amendment.

The extent to which such relationships have damaged international goodwill toward the U.S. is beyond measure. As the inspector general noted, a leading Turkish newspaper, Sabah, published an article on Air Force Maj. Gen. Peter Sutton, who is the U.S. liaison to the Turkish military -- and who appeared in the Christian Embassy video. The article described Christian Embassy as a "radical fundamentalist sect," perhaps irreparably damaging Sutton's primary job objective of building closer ties to the Turkish General Staff, which has expressed alarm at the influence of fundamentalist Christian groups inside the U.S. military.

Our military personnel swear an oath to protect and defend the Constitution, not the Bible. Yet by turning a blind eye to OSU and Christian Embassy activities, the Pentagon is, in essence, endorsing their proselytizing. And sometimes it's more explicit than that.

That certainly was the case with Army Lt. Gen. William "Jerry" Boykin, deputy undersecretary of Defense for intelligence. The Pentagon put him in charge of the hunt for Osama bin Laden and Al Qaeda in 2003. The same year, Boykin was found to be touring American churches, where he gave speeches -- in uniform -- casting the Iraq war in end-times terms. "We're in is a spiritual battle," he told one congregation in Oregon. "Satan wants to destroy this nation . . . and he wants to destroy us as a Christian army." The story wound up in newspapers, magazines and on "60 Minutes." And, of course, it was reported all over the Muslim world. The Pentagon reacted with a collective shrug.

American military and political officials must, at the very least, have the foresight not to promote crusade rhetoric in the midst of an already religion-tinged war. Many of our enemies in the Mideast already believe that the world is locked in a contest between Christianity and Islam. Why are our military officials validating this ludicrous claim with their own fiery religious rhetoric?

It's time to actively strip the so-called war on terror of its religious connotations, not add to them. Because religious wars are not just ugly, they are unwinnable. And despite what Operation Straight Up and its supporters in the Pentagon may think is taking place in Iraq, the Rapture is not a viable exit strategy.

Michael L. Weinstein, founder of the Military Religious Freedom Foundation, wrote "With God on Our Side: One Man's War Against an Evangelical Coup in America's Military." Reza Aslan, author of "No god but God: The Origins, Evolution, and Future of Islam," is on the MRFF advisory board.

Current Mood: enraged

Jeremy Hall, an Army Specialist in Iraq
is Harassed, Threatened after
MRFF’s Lawsuit went Public

By Ilene Proctor - September 24, 2007

In today’s Army, it's hard to fight for God & Country if you have the wrong (or no) God. Such is the case with Jeremy Hall, an Army specialist based in Iraq, whose personal safety is now in severe jeopardy.

If your blood runs cold when you read this, it will freeze when you read why

Because of the frequent occurrences of “fragging” and what happened to Pat Tillman’s and other “friendly fire” occurrences, Hall has every reason to fear for his safety. After word got out that he was a plaintiff in a landmark lawsuit that named Secretary of Defense Robert Gates as a Defendant, alleged postings of messages on military and civilian based blogs, such as military.com, apparently threatened Hall with "fragging," a colloquial expression used by the military in which an unpopular soldier could be killed by intentional friendly fire during combat. Weinstein indicated he has not yet been able to verify the authenticity of the blog postings threatening Hall with "fragging." Weinstein further states that he “takes the threat of violence against Hall seriously and has already reached out to senior officials in the Pentagon as well as senior Army operations officials to ensure Hall's safety.”

Hall writes: "Mikey, I hope I am not a victim of a hate crime while I sleep 2 tonight," "I do not want to die for my country this way. The soldier( whom he names) is threatening to beat my ass and all sorts of things. I may be harmed or worse. I am afraid for my safety. I can’t sleep man... I just layed (sic) in my bunk for two hours and I couldn't sleep."

An Army Specialist, Jeremy Hall, who is on active duty at Combat Operations Base Speicher, Iraq, is in this dire situation solely because of his atheistic beliefs, and the fact that he declined to participate in a Christian prayer ceremony commemorating the Thanksgiving Holiday.

"Immediately after plaintiff made it known he would decline to join hands and pray, he was confronted, in the presence of other military personnel, by the senior ranking staff sergeant who asked plaintiff why he did not want to pray, whereupon plaintiff explained because he is an atheist," says the lawsuit filed by the Military Religious Freedom Foundation (MRFF), an organization with an undisputed moral compass that is always focused on assuring that our Military’s might is matched with America’s Constitutional guarantees. (http://www.militaryreligiousfreedom.org) "The staff sergeant asked plaintiff what an atheist is and plaintiff responded it meant that he (plaintiff) did not believe in God. This response so infuriated the staff sergeant he told plaintiff that he would have to sit elsewhere for the Thanksgiving dinner. Nonetheless, plaintiff sat at the table in silence and finished his meal." Specialist Hall was then told he would have to face consequences because he, in so many words, refused to be evangelized.

Hall contacted Mikey Weinstein of the Military Religious Freedom Foundation and a landmark lawsuit was filed on Constitution Day, September 17th, 2007 US District Court in Kansas City against Major Freddy Welborn and Secretary of Defense Robert Gates.

In an apparent response to the lawsuit, Hall just sent an urgent email message to Mikey Weinstein, informing him a fellow soldier is goading him with a variety of threats and slurs, threatening to "beat his ass," calling him an "atheist ass pirate," "a faggot," and gathering a posse of bullies to intimidate Hall because of the allegations Hall made against the military in the landmark lawsuit.

Weinstein states: "I am demanding that the Secretaries of Defense and the US Army take absolute immediate action to do two things: provide for the comprehensive personal safety of our co-plaintiff Army Specialist Jeremy Hall, and immediately investigate all US Army personnel who may have violated the Uniform Code of Military Justice by threatening the personal safety and indeed the life of Specialist Hall. If one hair on Hall's head is touched there will be hell to pay."

Even President Bush, on the occasion of the Third Bush-Kerry Debate – 13 October 2004, stated: “I’m mindful in a free society that people can worship if they want to, or not. You’re equally an American if you choose to worship an Almighty and if you choose not to. If you’re a Christian, Jew or Muslim, you’re equally an America (sic), That’s the great thing about, is the right to worship the way you see fit.”


Hall's lawsuit alleges that on August 7, when Hall received permission by an Army chaplain to organize a meeting of other soldiers who shared his atheist beliefs, his supervisor, Army Major Freddy Welborn, broke up the gathering and threatened to retaliate against the soldier by charging him with violating the Uniform Code of Military Justice. The complaint also alleges that Welborn vowed to block Hall's reenlistment in the Army if the atheist group continued to meet - a violation of Hall's First Amendment rights under the Constitution. Welborn is named as a defendant in the lawsuit.

"During the course of the meeting, defendant Welborn confronted the attendees, disrupted the meeting and interfered with plaintiff Hall's and the other attendees' rights to discuss topics of their interests," the lawsuit alleges.The complaint charges that Hall, who is based at Fort Riley, Kansas, has been forced to "submit to a religious test as a qualification to his post as a soldier in the United States Army," a violation of Article VI, Clause 3 of the Constitution.

The Military Religious Freedom Foundation said Defense Secretary Robert Gates is named as a defendant in the lawsuit because he has allowed the military to engage in "a pattern and practice of constitutionally impermissible promotions of religious beliefs within the Department of Defense and the United States military."

The lawsuit seeks an injunction against Welborn from further participating in behavior "that has the effect of establishing compulsory religious practices" and requests that Gates intercede with Welborn so that Hall can exercise his rights for free speech.

Weinstein explains: "This landmark federal litigation is just the first of a galaxy of new lawsuits that will be expeditiously filed against the Pentagon in a concentrated effort to preserve the precious religious liberties guaranteed by our beautiful United States Constitution," Weinstein said Monday. "Today, we are boldly stabbing back against an unconstitutional heart of darkness, a contagion of fundamentalist religious supremacy and triumphalism noxiously dominating the command and control of the technologically most lethal organization ever created by humankind: our honorable and noble United States armed forces."



ABOUT MIKEY WEINSTEIN


Michael L. “Mikey” Weinstein is Founder and President of the Military Religious Freedom Foundation (http://www.militaryreligiousfreedom.org). He is an attorney and businessman who spent over three years as a White House counsel in the Reagan White House. He was formerly General Counsel for H. Ross Perot and Perot Systems Corporation. An Honor Graduate from the USAF Academy, he served on active duty in the USAF as a Judge Advocate General (JAG) for ten years. He lives in Albuquerque, New Mexico. He is also author of the book With God on Our Side: One Man's War Against an Evangelical Coup in America's Military with Davin Seay."

Current Mood: distressed

http://www.militaryreligiousfreedom.org/Media_video/dan_rather/index.html

watch it it's about 20 min but it's interesting

If you vote for Huckabee Youre a fucking idiot!

http://rawstory.com/news/2007/Huckabee_Amend_Constitution_to_meet_Gods_0115.html

Current Mood: distressed

What's wrong with this? hahhha  WTF 


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9D8AeiAamjY

FUCK REV. WRIGHT!!!! IN THE FUCKING FACE!!!!        

fuck revrand wright and his racist ass opinions fuck you rev.. the irish have done nothing to you... FUCK YOU!!!!! I HOPE IM WRONG ABOUT A HELL OR HEAVEN JUST SO YOU FUCKING BURN IN ETERNAL HELL YOU FUCK SHITBAG FUCK YOU!!!!!!

Glue is a funny substance, it holds things together really well. I never thought i could use too much..  but the thing is, is that if you use more than youre supposed to it never cures. Not enough and it all falls apart. In both cases it's water soluble when you get it wet it starts to weaken.  i might never know if i used to much or if i didnt use enough, but i definitely got it wet and im not too happy about it. Should i put more on?? Or should i let it dry and find out first hand what it really needs to stay together...  the latter will take time but it's the right way to go about it..  in th emean time, i think ill just focus on what i  have control of..  it's not much so it shouldnt be too hard.

Current Mood: exhausted

Loss of honey bee populations a threat to U.S. agriculture

Mar 14, 2007 12:00 PM

        

EDITOR'S NOTE — The following article was compiled by Jerry Hayes, president of the Apiary Inspectors of America.

Honey Bees are the foundational, keystone pollinator specie of modern production agriculture. Albert Einstein said, “If the honey bee becomes extinct, mankind will follow within four years.”

Without fertilization a seed does not form and the plant has no reason to expend the energy to build a fruit around that seed. Apples have generally 10 seeds, cucumbers 100s, watermelons 1,000s. Each seed must be fertilized or a flat sided apple or curved cucumber or funny shaped watermelon is formed.

Many insects can pollinate. Some are even more effective at collecting and transferring pollen than honey bees. Bumble bees, blue orchard bees, Osmia and many others are excellent pollinators. However, their colonies are either very small, comprising maybe several hundred individuals such as bumble bees, or made up of single individual females such as blue orchard bee and Osmia.

The advantages of honey bees is that their nest or colony can be picked up and moved without greatly disrupting the life cycle of the bees.

What honey bees lack in efficiency is vastly compensated for in repetition. Honey bees visit flowers multiple times to ensure complete pollination. If the pollen is viable, and the receiving flower is healthy, fertilization takes place and maximum fruit, vegetable, nut or seed set is the result.

A grower can have the best location, the best soil, the best fertilization, the best pest control, the best fungus control, the best irrigation and the very best cultivars, but if there are no honey bees, to take pollen from point A to point B, there will be no saleable, marketable crop.

Agriculture is enough of a gamble, which is why for maximum production of insect pollinated crops honey bees are the vital part of production.

Honey bees are in decline. Over the last 15-20 years honey bee parasites, predators and diseases never before found in the U.S. have decimated and weakened the feral and managed population. Growers, up until the mid-1980s, rarely had to think about pollination of their crops because there was a large feral population of honey bees. These wild populations lived in hollow trees, or cavities in structures and provided free pollination for small acreages.

Then an invasive, introduced, small, mite(tracheal mite) which lives and reproduces in the honey bees' breathing tubes killed thousands of feral and managed honey bee colonies. A control for managed colonies was found. Untreated feral colonies died out.

Then an external mite, varroa destructor, that sucks the blood of honey bees was introduced. Varroa destructor originally came from Asia. This devastating parasite for all intents eliminated established feral honey bees and killed off additional thousands of managed colonies. Varroa continues to weaken and kill managed colonies as effective long-term controls have not been found and fully adopted.

Varroa, in piercing the body of the honey bee to get its blood meal, vectors or transfers additional fungus and bacteria that can kill individual honey bees as they are weakened by this feeding as immune systems collapse.

There are many more pests, predators and diseases that exist world wide that can adversely affect our managed honey bees. We need to be incredibly careful about imports of honey bees, honey and beeswax from other countries as all of these can harbor new and devastating honey bee diseases and parasites.

Leaving varroa and tracheal mites to an unprotected and unadapted honey bee population in the U.S., coupled with environmental toxins, improper use and exposure to agricultural pesticides and a honey market dominated by low cost commodity foreign producers, has resulted in the lowest number of honey bee colonies since the 1940s.

Our human population at the same time is not shrinking. There is more demand for a healthy and varied diet now than at any time in history. The consumer expects it and will pay for it.

American agriculture developed over the last 300 years under a glut of pollination because of the presence of the honey bee (apis mellifera). There is no glut of honey bees, and other marginal pollinators are suffering as well.

Pollination is in decline while crops needing pollination are increasing. There is a deficit of pollinators.

Several management strategies need to be implemented to insure a rebuilding of U.S. honey bee populations:

• Varroa destructor control.

  Make a fist. Place your fist anywhere on your body. Proportionally this is how large a varroa mite is on a honey bee sucking its blood. Now put 2, 3 or 4 of these mites on a bee. You can imagine how this would weaken a honey colony. Now try killing mites on a honey bee. It is basically trying to kill a bug on a bug. Hard to do. When varroa quickly developed resistance to labeled chemical miticides it became more problematic.

• Low honey prices.

  Honey is a by-product of pollination. Beekeepers traditionally produced honey to sell. Cost of production of honey in the U.S. is approximately $1 per pound. Honey is being imported from Asia for $.50-$.60 per pound at the dock. Many beekeepers have simply gotten out of the industry because the transition to a fee based pollination industry is not complete.

• Loss of relevance for U.S. agriculture.

  Consumers know they get food at the grocery store. There is a continuing disconnect with agriculture as urban and suburban populations grow. As our elected officials also come from this non-agricultural culture, they have an equally vague idea of what sustainable food production really is.

It is predicted by 2015 46 percent of all U.S. fresh vegetables will come from China. Anything which becomes a commodity, whether steel, electronics, cars or food bows to the low cost producer. It can be argued that U.S. agriculture produces a better product. One that has less of a pesticide, sanitary health and safety risk but with third world countries producing, visually to the consumer, a similar product, cost reigns supreme.

There will always be beekeepers producing honey and providing pollination. What will this industry, my industry, look like in 10-15 years? I don't know. It will be smaller and different that is for sure. It will still be there in partnership with fruit, vegetable, nut and seed growers as a team, producing the highest quality products for a growing population.

But in the U.S. as an under-appreciated part of agriculture it may be relegated to the unique, quaint and unimportant.

Use this story the next time someone asks you how pervasive honey bees are in food production. Ask them how honey bees produce ice cream. Tell them that approximately 50,000 colonies of honey bees are used to pollinate alfalfa for seed. This seed is planted to grow alfalfa to harvest as hay and pellets. This alfalfa is then fed to dairy cows that produce the milk that makes the ice cream. We are all linked. If the linkage is weak we all suffer.

Right now the link is weakening, but food production can still be depended on from non U.S. sources. As the National Academy of Science (NAS) reported late last year there is a pollinator decline in North America. This may result in less food production which can be compensated for by other countries. Kind of like our energy needs are compensated for by oil rich nations. Do we want our food requirements to be likewise delegated to someone else? This is truly a strategic issue and is why the (NAS) was tasked with preparing their report.

The take home message that I would hope you now have is that honey bees are a vital part of production agriculture that currently feeds us.

Do you care?

        

Current Mood: shocked

 one had ought not to hold beasts of prey to be "evil" merely for their utilizing their own strength. One should not blame them for their "thirst for enemies and resistances and triumphs" (§13). We are not to hold the noble responsible for their actions because, according to Nietzsche, there is no metaphysical subject. Only the weak need the illusion of the subject (or soul) to hold their actions together as a unity. But they have no right "to make the bird of prey accountable for being a bird of prey."
For the priest, it is the "'supreme' license for power." He sets himself up as the "saviour" of (d) the physiologically deformed, offering them a cure for their exhaustion and listlessness (which is in reality only a therapy which does not tackle the roots of their suffering).

Nietzsche suggests a number of causes for widespread physiological inhibition: (i) the crossing of races; (ii) emigration of a race to an unsuitable environment (e.g. the Indians to India); (iii) the exhaustion of a race (e.g. Parisian pessimism from 1850); (iv) bad diet (e.g. vegetarianism); (v) diseases of various kinds, including malaria and syphilis (e.g. German depression after the Thirty Years' War) (§17).

The ascetic priest has a range of strategies for anesthetizing the continuous, low-level pain of the weak. Four of these are innocent in the sense that they do the patient no further harm: (1) a general deadening of the feeling of life; (2) mechanical activity; (3) "small joys", especially love of one's neighbour; (4) the awakening of the communal feeling of power. He further has a number of strategies which are guilty in the sense that they have the effect of making the sick sicker (although the priest applies them with a good conscience); they work by inducing an "orgy of feeling" (Gefühls-Ausschweifung). He does this by "altering the direction of ressentiment," i.e. telling the weak to look for the causes of their unhappiness in themselves (in "sin"), not in others. Such training in repentance is responsible, according to Nietzsche, for phenomena such as the St Vitus' and St John's dancers of the Middle Ages, witch-hunt hysteria, somnambulism (of which there were eight epidemics between 1564 and 1605), and the delirium characterized by the widespread cry of evviva la morte! ("long live death!").

Given the extraordinary success of the ascetic ideal in imposing itself on our entire culture, what can we look to to oppose it? "Where is the counterpart to this closed system of will, goal, and interpretation?" (§23) Nietzsche considers as possible opponents of the ideal: (a) modern science; (b) modern historians; (c) "comedians of the ideal" (§27).

Dawkins coined the term meme (the cultural equivalent of a 'gene') to describe how Darwinian principles might be extended to explain the spread of ideas and cultural phenomena. This has spawned the field of memetics. Dawkins used the term to refer to any cultural entity that an observer might consider a replicator. He hypothesised that people could view many cultural entities as capable of such replication, generally through exposure to humans, who have evolved as efficient (although not perfect) copiers of information and behaviour. Memes are not always copied perfectly, and might indeed become refined, combined or otherwise modified with other ideas, resulting in new memes, which may themselves prove more (or less) efficient replicators than their predecessors, thus providing a framework for a hypothesis of cultural evolution, analogous to the theory of biological evolution based on genes.

Though Dawkins originally floated the idea in his 1976 book The Selfish Gene, he has largely left the task of expanding upon it to other authors such as Susan Blackmore.^[34] Philosopher Mary Midgley, whom Dawkins has debated since the late 1970s, criticises memetics, gene selection and sociobiology as being excessively reductionist.^[35] Midgley wrote in 1979 that she had previously "not attended to Dawkins, thinking it unnecessary to "break a butterfly upon a wheel"^[36]—a comment that Dawkins described as being "hard to match, in reputable journals, for its patronising condescension toward a fellow academic".^[37][38]

Although Dawkins coined the term meme independently, he has never claimed that the idea itself was entirely a new one—there had been similar expressions for similar ideas in the past. John Laurent, in The Journal of Memetics, has suggested that the term meme may have derived from the work of the little-known German biologist Richard Semon.^[39] In 1904, Semon published Die Mneme (which appeared in English in 1924 as The Mneme). Semon's book discussed the cultural transmission of experiences, with insights parallel to Dawkins'. Laurent also found the term mneme used in Maurice Maeterlinck's The Life of the White Ant (1926), and highlighted the similarities to Dawkins' concept.^[39]

Appolonian and dyonesian complex :  
Musical and literary awareness ;

The idea of the appolonian dyonesian complex deals with human nature and the whole of human experience. based off the ideals of greek tragedy. As you read through think of songs and movies and books that move you, that leave you feeling weak at the knees shakey concerned or troubled. The principal of the complex, is the state of desire. The idea of attainable greatness and the neutrality of having a common "ok" "liveable life"...  No rise without the fall. Chances are if some form of art is going to move you, there are two key elements that feed you. You have tragedy followed by the hope of rising to an end means of happiness/greatness. Satisfaction can only be met when you have something to work towards. Think about the eventual and unthinkable distance you feel  when youre away from the ones you love. If they are a five minute drive you become complacent, you accept the idea that they're just there the ease of a visit lays within an attainable means. Expand that distance by three thousand miles. You can be no further from a visit, from an embrace.  you feel a slight to extreme desperation, your willingness to do everything in your power to get that visit becomes evident. you feel the extreme, there is absolutely nothing you wouldnt do to get there. You have the drive with no means. you may become frantic. the bottom line is you feel the drive, youre brain goes apeshit with problem solving excellence. you see everything as a possibility and plausible. The excitement the feelings you go through on the path to that visit are exponential. You feel the desire to attain the unattainable and you shoot for it. If you reside in the middle grounds everything is in reach, but if you start at the bottom nothing can stop you. Only from the bottom can you see the top, only from the bottom you ever even look for the top. Greek tragedy shows both sides of the spectrum it allows you to see things from the bottom you get the "buildup" it relates to the human experience. it's in tune to the reality of humanity.  sometimes rationality can cement you so heavily that you miss out on the experiences that can make you who you are who you want to be and can mudd you down into complacency. When you experience and relate to both sides it has the means to change you. next time you jog your ipod to a tune that gives you goosebumps listen pay attention to the words take what youre relating to lay it all out go through the things you feel, i guarantee you will find the lows and highs of the total human experience. if you dont, well then fuck sorry for wasting your time.

They say a radioactive isotope can decay in a few different ways.. most of which are at random. However if you cluster the atoms together their rate of decay can be dead on predictable. This theory of atomic decay and the radioactive half life can teach you about your life In terms of  50/50. The predicted outcome being positive or negative depending upon what kind of atom we're talking about. certain atoms are predisposed to release a positive charge leaving a negatively charged atom in it's wake. Vice versa, there are some atoms out there though than will eject their nucleus and there are some still that just split leaving two atoms, oppositely charged. Combined those two atoms have enormous potential energy, but when it splits and divides in two... distraught from the tearing the event releases everything the atoms race apart. frantically decaying, completely unstable. one would think that basic sscientific principle says opposites attract, negative and positive charges want nothing more than to combine and balance they want to be stable they need to be stable. However it will never happen, science can't join them. it's theoretically possible.., but the amount of force needed to allow them to join is unattainable. The more instability in you carry in your life will predict one out come and the more you have the easier and more "predetermined" that outcome will be. And when the decay happends youre stuck with it's half life. It's partially there and partially not. you can see the anti-neutrino, the proton... the nucleus and electron. but they aren't the element you started with. hahhha there are so many people that would be sooooo  fucking confused at this...   but hey fuck you it makes perfect sense to me.. ;  )